I'm barely peeking through my tired eyes here. Why do I get so exhausted lately? It is hardly 2 in the morning and I'm so ready for bed.
The roads were craptastic today, again. I may have to start driving the Durango because I am starting to get the white knuckle grip on the wheel. The only thing I hate about the Durango is that it is a gas guzzler.... 4wd on or off, it sucks down the fuel. That, and I hate parking it! LOL, i like my little Grand Am because i can just hop in and out really quick, park it quick (no 10 point turns, lmbo) and it's super easy on the gas. I dunno, maybe I should just go get some studded tires. I just don't feel like dropping $500 on tires. Can think of LOTS more fun stuff to do than buy stinking tires (see below *G*)!
It's Friday as of 2 hours ago and in 6 hours, I will be serving my last 8 hours before the weekend. Nice way to break it down, eh? I can't wait. I don't have anything planned per se, but anything but work is where i'm at. :-)
Marissa is finally turning over. I was beginning to worry that she was going to be a lazy butt like me! LOL, kidding. She's just pretty big and I'm sure that was why she wasn't doing it on "sched". Now if you lay her on the floor, she will scoot around and stuff. The fun begins. Wah! I no time she will be crawling (or rolling if she's like Orion) and then walking around tearing everything up. hehe. I'm not too worried about her wrecking stuff or getting hurt too much. We have always had a pretty baby-proofed home. I mean, I don't have breakable stuff really... other than electronics. I just have to think of something to do with the open wall at the stairs. She might crawl right out and fall down to the main level. I think maybe we'll just rip out the shelving and put in some posts. I don't want to drywall it even halfway up because i'll miss being able to see who's walking through the door.
Actually made a nice dinner again tonight and nobody was interested. This is why I hate cooking. The kids ate but Orion's kind of sick and Gia was just in one of her whiny moods. Couldn't wake Kurt up for nothing so ended up giving the dog his Cornish game hen. *sigh* Oh well I guess. I haven't had much of an appetite lately. For the most part, I just eat around 2 or 3 pm and that's it for the day. I keep myself filled up on caffeine. :-(
I've had a bad couple of weeks. I started to feel like I was falling apart. I always get like this and tell myself to make some life changes... but never do. I know why I feel like this - it's because I don't take care of myself. Grr! Anyway, back to the reason things started to go downhill... So I went to the eye doctor on Wednesday last week and they tell me that I may be at risk for glaucoma. Guess my records from 2 years ago showed that my nerves were a lot longer than they are today. So even though they said my eyes seemed healthy, they thought it was strange that the nerves had such a dramatic change (i'm thinking, hello... i just had a baby, it's probably due to malnutrition! LOL). Anywho, they set me up to get some testing done in a few weeks. Yay. I swear this better just be nothing. So the next morning, I am brushing my hair and once in awhile, I get some gray/silver hair and pull it out. Well as I was brushing (granted, I've LOST a lot of hair in the past month due to hormone shifting) and see like massive gray spots. :-( Time to get it dyed I think... almost. Then at work that day I am eating a chewy granola bar (not the crunchy kind) and a freaking tooth breaks off with part of the filling with it. Just what I need before a dentist visit. They are going to be pissed at me. I haven't been in a year and a half or so (since I got pregnant with Marissa) and so lots of crap has happened to my mouth since then. I couldn't get my wisdom teeth out and then I lost a the post from a 12 year old root canal. The tooth went a long time ago so now it's just an open gaping hole. I have horrible teeth already but pregnancy seems to do quite a number on them. argh. I just can't win. I feel like I may as well of gotten dentures a long time ago instead of trying to fix them.
That's only the tip of the iceberg but the most memorable things that made me step back and say "whoa... what happened to me?" Eyes bad, hair bad, teeth bad. DANGIT! The only good news is that I lost a little bit more weight (no pats on the back cuz i didn't do anything to lose it). I just have maybe 28 lbs to go until my short term goal and about 53 until my long term goal. I'm hoping to be at my short term goal at least by June. That is what...? 8 months? Think I can lose 4 lbs a month? I really need to buckle down and start working out. Don't count how many times I've said that in the past year. LOL!
Ok, well i'm going to go shut my eyes. I want to get the sleep over so i can get to the work quicker to start the weekend sooner. hehehe.