life in slow motion

So for the most part, i always feel hurried, rushed, forgetful, stressed... something's been different the past few days. Not that i'm doing anything differently or have any less to do. It turns out when you shut your emotions off, everything kind of goes in slow motion. And i'm not saying i like it, but it's kind of a new feeling for me. I'm sure i've experienced it before, but never actually thought about it and recognized it for what it is. The feelings of hurry seem to be directly linked to all of this. If I could only learn how to turn everything off on demand. Kind of like the clapper. Clap on! Clap Clap off! Stop thinking today and you'll be able to find a slower pace! For three low easy pay payments, act now!

This post is starting to make me seem a bit weird and off so I'll leave all of that above at that. Let's just put it like - it's not been a good start to March for me. I've been keeping the emotions bottled up and feel like i'm about to crack wide open. Feel pretty damn sad really.

I guess i'm glad it's almost the weekend. I am not looking forward to spring break next week, though. I still have to work but the kids will be all off schedule. My mom has already offered to help out with the kids since she works for a real school, she has extra time off. They tend to come home wild after visiting her. I don't complain, though... it's nice to have the help.

Laundry is calling my name again. Do you fold the underwear and socks? I used to fold the underwear but with a family, that becomes harder.... especially when the undies are too little. Socks - i insist must be placed together and then folded over the top. It drives me a bit batty when they are loose... partnerless. :)

more boring talk

from me. What's worse than boring talk? TAXES! Yes, that's right. I did my taxes last week and am now patiently awaiting the return. Unfortunately, it's all spent already. $1600 for fuel that I haven't paid for that's nicely keeping my tush warm. $1500 for a CC payoff... ugh, Christmas. $1000 toward the Disneyland vacation. *sigh* Oh well, at least the government saved it for me. LOL!

Also did my friend, Karen's taxes and my mom's taxes. Anyone else? ;-) It's not like i'm a tax accountant but I guess nobody trusts themselves to do them and of course, nobody wants to pay to have them done by H&R Blech. I had my taxes done there a few years ago thinking that they'd hook me up with stuff I wasn't thinking to deduct. Wrong. They did the same damn taxes I do and I ended up paying them like $250 for nothing.

Let's see... what else to report? I'm procrastinating getting off my behind. Gia is walking around the house with a robe and towel on her head. She thinks she has to be like "mom" with the towel wrap. The tv is blaring. I don't even know what's playing. Orion fell asleep at 9 on the couch and I just woke him up and told him to hit the sack. He's too heavy to carry now. That makes me sad that one of my babies is too big to carry. The baby is fast asleep but she only played with me for an hour tonight. Usually enough playtime for me on a weekday but i'm used to more. Thinking about waking her up... NOT! lol Gia has now reported back with her pajamas on. She thinks she has to tell me EVERYTHING she does. "Mom, I went to the bathroom." "Mom, I have my socks on now." heehehe. It's dark in the house right now and it's making me sleepy. I'm signing off for now.

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Guess what today is...?

Yepppppp... it's laundry day again! Maybe I can sneak off in between to scrap. We shall see... normally I do dishes and other cleaning in between but that sounds like I've planned chores for my last day off! LOL I don't thinkso... and now that i've said it out loud, I know it won't be so.

i haven't dropped...

... off the face of the planet... yet. I'm still here!

Nothing interesting to report lately. I have been working like a dog so just haven't had a lot of motivation to write (or think for that matter) lately.

I was kind of embarrassed about my idiocy yesterday while driving. I'm on the highway - the same one I drive day in and day out for the past god-knows-how-long. I'm at the stopped intersection making a left... just waiting for my turn. It's an arrow light so la-dee-dah. I start heading for the turn when i realize that the arrow is still red and i'm just going to go because the oncoming traffic is far enough away for me to make it. LOL, so i slam on the brakes halfway through it and have to backup because of the cross-traffic that the light will turn green for in T minus 10 seconds. It was funny... kind of. The car behind me was even ready to follow me on through the turn! LOL, anyway... i totally felt like an ass trying to play it off like "hee-hee... i'm a dummy." (fidget with radio knobs... don't act like you never do that when you don't want to make eye contact! lmao)

Family news:
We are 58 days away from Disneyland. I am still stoked although feeling like it's going to be FOREVER until we go. I wish these days would fly by faster.

Orion lost a tooth today while eating an apple. It's been loose for like 4 months. LOL! It's his second official lost tooth. I'm waiting for the top front ones to come out as those are the teeth that the enamel is ruined. I'm praying that the new ones come in shiny and white. You might be asking why I said "official" a few sentences ago. Well, last year I noticed that they had a toothfairy chart at school and who's name should appear with tooth stickers next to it? Yep... he claimed he had lost 3 teeth already I think. Truth of the matter is that he didn't start losing teeth until this year and those other teeth were all removed by a dentist! And it was only 2 so this boy was really putting on an act!

Marissa is becoming pretty mobile. She can get from sitting to laying on her belly and rolls around on the floor some. We have to get moving on baby-proofing. Our house is "fairly" babified but only insomuch as we don't have anything for her to really break. The safety is the major point and when we bought this place, Gia was almost 3 so there wasn't much she needed for safety. My major concern is this area from our living room to the foyer on the main level of the house. We have a stairway, yes... that's no problem gating that off but there's also a peekthrough on the stairway. It's not a wall... it's a built in shelving unit that has open areas so you can see who's at the front door or who's in the foyer. I'm afraid she's going to take a dive through there. Heck, the kids mess around there now but i usually scold them if i see them hanging through. It's not a super high place but it's high enough to hurt. I asked Kurt if we could just close the whole thing up but he hasn't made the initiative yet to get it done.

Marissa is also getting pretty interactive with us. When I do the "lollipop" POP with the finger inside my mouth, she copies me (of course she can't make the noise but she tries) and then says "bup!" She is doing the clicking noise with her tongue and can also make kiss-like noises. When i ask for a kiss, she sometimes will lean forward and put her whole mouth to mine (open!) I hear her saying "mumumumu..." more now but i don't think she is calling me yet. She's been saying "dadadada" for a long time but again, not really calling us. She knows her name so if you say it, she looks at you. She will do the indian noises with her mouth and hand now. And she is standing pretty good and taking steps with help. I am working on getting her to stand with no support from me or the furniture. She can do it but she freaks out if she thinks she is on her own. LOL

Gia is up to the same ol' silliness. She truly is a sweetie but boy oh boy can she talk... and whine and complain. :) Yesterday she asked me when i would buy her a dress and i'm all, "dress?!!? You don't even like dresses I thought." She has actually become more interested in girly stuff lately. I told her that I couldn't buy her a bunch of dresses because of all the wasted money and money used for bills. LOL, i'm so mean! I explained that if she continued to waste food, electricity, water, etc. that we couldn't buy dresses. Then I told her how many dresses we could buy with each bill I pay. I said, "this house costs $1500 a month. that means i could buy like 80 dresses if I didn't have to pay that!" "the water bill is $200 a month! I could buy 10 new dresses if we didn't waste all that water!" On one hand, I think these are good lessons but on the other hand, i don't like to say this kind of stuff too much because i remember that i grew up way too fast with financials (my parents financial stuff that is). She is very much me, though... just amplified. She talks more, talks louder, and whines & fights more. Same Monica attitude, though. heeeheha

Ok, time to get off this computer. my legs are falling asleep.



"Sibling Rivalry" done with the Trendsetter DT Kit






"Love Notes" done with the Lavendar Blue Kit/OD